The Gift of Writing

Writing by Candle Light[3]

Four months ago I had came to the conclusion that my ability to put life into written words was a gift. It was a conclusion reached based on a vision, an experience that presented itself to me in a time when silence was all that governed my day. I decided that I was going to write. Not just because I wanted to, not to make a profit, but because I was given a gift, a powerful gift, and I was wasting it.

Today, back in the claws of everyday working life, I was challenged by a troublesome flood of uneasiness. It left me feeling very anxious and since I was alone, I decided to try and capture the events in writing, to enable me at least a little sense of being in control. Later, I showed it to a friend, looking to explain what had occurred. ‘You described it really well’, he said after, to which I responded ‘well, considering the circumstances I was in, I didn’t do too bad I guess’.

It wasn’t the circumstances that diminished the quality of my writing.

As I wake up in the middle of the night with a replay of that dialogue in my head, I realise that I’ve failed it. I have failed my gift, failed to honor it. And I realise that it wasn’t just this time. I have forgotten the conclusion I reached five months ago.

It’s almost 4 am as I type these lines. The world around me is silent. Perfect time to remember, to ask for forgiveness, and to do what I was born to do.

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~ by spasmicallyperfect on August 28, 2009.

4 Responses to “The Gift of Writing”

  1. good for you

    Smile.

  2. just do it.

    I guess it worked for Nike.

  3. spaz,
    i am so glad to see you back. i’ve missed you. staying true to this thing called writing is always a challenge, even under the most inspirational of times. don’t beat yourself up about it.
    love
    sarah

    Haha. If you only new how much my therapist would agree with you!!!! 😉 Great to see you around here again Sarah.

  4. Spaz~ my dear friend, your words are always from a place of peace… wisdom and soul. Blessings and welcome back

    Must have missed this one? Yes, thank you for your kind comments, as always, they are very much appreciated.

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