Turning fear into Love
Somedays I am afraid of silence, afraid that if left completely silent, I could no longer stand it, could no longer hear any of the voices that can only be heard when it’s silent.
Somedays I am afraid of the darkness, afraid that if left completely in the dark, I could no longer see the internal light that always shines in us.
Somedays I am afraid of being naked, afraid that if left completely naked, I would no longer feel the internal flame that keeps me warm when every other source fails.
Somedays I am afraid of not being loved, afraid that if left without a lover, I would realize that I no longer love myself enough to smile on my own.
Everyday I long for a moment silent, dark, naked and loveless enough to face all of those fears, a moment that will last for as long as it has too or long enough to turn that fear into Love.
Spasmically Perfect 
this is quite profound and revealing, i think. quiet in its impact but effective. well done.
sarah
Thank you Sarah. It’s a personal piece but realising that it does something for others is an additional gratification to just capturing the moment for myself.
I like this as well.
I find it very interesting that, as I’ve been ruminating on the fears I’ve been feeling over the past few months, so many of the sites I’ve been visiting regularily are posting about the same topic. Must be something in the stars……
Jennifer
I have had moments like this too. I am no longer sure it’s the stars, I think the more we actually engage in a subject the more we recognise others that are equally engaged. And the more I share the more I realise that there’s way more people out there feeling similarly then I ever imagined. Thanks for returning Jennifer….
Understanding one’s fears: the beginning of wisdom (or happiness). A bit pompous, I admit, but that’s the feeling!
Cheers,
Robert-Gilles
Well said and I agree. Having said that (I have a tendency to want to add to or change quotes like that, so beware 😉 ), wisdom has many beginnings in my opinion. One of them is realising that we don’t have a clue.
Can you hear my sound of my silence!
Fear is absence of Love
Beauty is presence of LOVe.
and your post is so wonderful.
lots of love
Thank you Suresh and good to see you back! Thank you also very much for sending me Love ‘black on white’ 🙂 .
Very beautiful and vulnerable prose.
Being the taoist soul that I am, I see opposites, like fear and love, as coexisting. Real authentic love is scary, baby, and that’s the truth!
And there is a pause of silence pulsing through sound.
I have found that if you can get to a place of emptiness, of existential silence and darkness and lack of pretense, that it is a blank canvass on which you can paint yourself and your life. Emptiness is the soul of creation. If that makes any sense at all.
‘Taoist soul’, who would have suspected? 😉
What you are saying makes a lot of sense. The older I get and the more I examine, the more I come up with ‘theories’ (dislike the word but am too lazy to find a better one) like that myself. Thanks for sharing NH
I too, am coming out of a darkness, a fear; there is finally an inkling of light, of love, and hope. It’s small, but getting bigger. Thanks for your blog, and for the inspiration you give by sharing your journey.
And as long as you keep pushing, it will keep getting bigger. As far as I am concerned, there was one moment where I reached this new level of insight (light?) that made it very, very hard to go back to my old (easier seeming) ways. It cost me more energy to ignore it then to continue on the path of Light, Love, Hope whatever you want to call it.
Have to say, at times it seems that I don’t know the words to adequately describe these new experiences, in none of the languages that I speak. There are a lot of newer expressions that are surfacing (or becoming more shared with the general public) from the Spiritual, New Age, Self Discovery etc environment that I don’t have a personal frame of reference for yet. Some days I don’t know whether the ‘so called’ civilized world has to develop this vocabulary or since this whole idea is nothing new, we need to relearn it. Thank you very much for sharing and your kind words kim
That pic really compliments this well written piece. Good Eye.
Thanks, when I saw this one it was love at first sight. Welcome by the way 🙂 .
Or, to put it succinctly, face your fear. I liked this post because I have often had moments like this, when I realized that living with the thing I feared was ultimately worse than confronting it. Well done.
–Smith
Thank you Smith. This was a very personal one and I am glad I posted it. Seems I am not alone in feeling like this now and then…….
what a beautiful picture.
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Thank you and welcome to Spasmicallyperfect 🙂